Monday, 7 August 2017

The waiting

"I have done nothing all summer but wait for myself to be myself again."

Georgia O'keeffe wrote this once and it resonated with me a lot, and with how I've been feeling lately. This Summer I took some time to stop thinking about my life and, in a way, occupy myself with understanding other people: characters from books, movies, songs and real people who write blogs and make videos online. Focusing on different lives was quite entertaining, and not thinking too much about myself and what worries me was a peaceful experience. I needed to cut some ties with my reality as a student and give myself a break before I start a new phase in my life, so I planned the most boring month I could. I didn't do much more other than simply exist. It was a luxury; my graduation present for myself.

I am starting to come back now, slowly but steady, as I felt the need to create another blog and started being more active on social media. I have my linkedin profile figured out and my CV is ready to go. I think about my autumn clothes, moving apartments and whether I will be able to start working out again or not. I don't have any answers yet, but I don't mind: for the first time in my life, I enjoy not knowing what is coming.

Learning how to live with uncertainty was very hard for me, and understanding that life doesn't always happen like we want it to was another challenge. But I keep thinking that maybe things don't happen the way we dream of because there is always an even better option that we're too blind to even consider (for someone with no religion, I am a very spiritual person). I'm happy when I feel inspired, and new beginnings are a big source of inspiration for me. This year I get to begin again after saying goodbye to three educational, but painful years - and if you ask me where I will be in five, this is the first time I can say I have no clue.

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  1. Desejo-te a maior força para este novo começo. Sinto uma onda de positividade e inspiração no teu texto e isso motivou-me. Os novos começos são também uma boa fonte de inspiração para mim e é por esse motivo que em breve farei também uma mudança no blogue.

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  2. Very honest and beautiful post. Love the quote!

    xoxox,
    CC

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  3. Tudo em relação ao que escreveste ressoa bastante comigo. Ainda não cheguei a essa fase - ainda me faltam 2 dolorosos anos -, mas tenho tentado aprender a não pensar demasiado no futuro e a não elaborar demasiados planos para depois da faculdade.

    Vai contado mais sobre a tua experiência because I might need guidance.

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  4. Revi-me muito neste texto. Deixa-me apenas desejar-te o melhor, seja lá o que isso for. Tenho a certeza que muitas coisas boas estão aí à porta, porque és uma excelente pessoa e tenho a certeza que também és/serás uma excelente profissional. E uma pessoa que se envolve tanto e dá tudo de si em tudo o que faz e cria, só merece o melhor. Cá estarei para ver as tuas conquistas :)

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  5. Sou sincera, também não sei onde me vejo em 5 anos! Desejo-te um excelente recomeço linda. <3
    The Fancy Cats

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  6. Good luck and once again congratulate you for completing your education successfully😘
    Regards
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  7. Excelente texto e belas palavras!
    vejo muita paixão ai.
    bju
    Karina Pinheiro

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  8. Beautifully written! Good luck with everything!

    Jennifer
    Effortlessly Sophisticated

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  9. Absolutely beautiful writing, I'm so glad to have you back! It sounds like what you really needed was to lose yourself to discover yourself again x

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  10. Great post!

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  11. I can relate to every thought of yours that led you to write this beautiful post. I feel we are so used to thinking about future instead of accepting the present and make the most of it. I am glad you slowly are coming out of it and being yourself again. Sending all the good vibes to you :)

    xx
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  12. Adorei!

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  13. It is important to have a plan, but it is even better to get lost sometimes =) Good luck!


    Beijinhos
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  14. Eu já tenho esse sentimento e ainda vou agora para o 2º ano...
    Ainda bem que voltaste :)
    Beijinhos <3

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  15. Por vezes precisamos de nos perder para nos voltar a encontrar, desejo-te o melhor!

    Beijinhos,
    Inês
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  16. I love how you write about enjoying not knowing what is coming - those are the most exciting times in life, in my opinion :)

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    x

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  17. It's never too late to take a walk in our lives. Have a great day

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  18. I love how honest you are here, and I can completely relate to this post. I've suddenly felt a need to re-start as well, and I personally think Autumn is a wonderful time to do so. I hope things work out for you, and I hope the new season/change treats you well.

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  19. Good luck with everything ! Great post !
    Have a nice day !
    xox
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  20. Que tudo te corra bem para este novo começo, adorei o teu texto motivador
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  21. Thank you for sharing this post. Readjustment can be difficult sometimes but it's also very exciting! xx

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  22. Living with uncertainty can be so challenging, but I can relate. However, I can say that the uncertainty has always paid off. :) Best of luck and I really hope everything works out for you too!

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  23. Faz parte da vida, parar um pouco para respirar e colocar as coisas no lugar. É um impulso para renovar as energias, você vai ver. Beijos
    Charme-se

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  24. I feel like you're on the same stage with your life as me I've already started to focus on autumn clothes and recipes, I still didn't figured out linked in but it's all because it's not really popular here where I live. I hope that this new chapter in your life will be great and full of inspiration :)

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  25. What a beautiful post and thanks for sharing that quote!
    Have a lovely day :)
    Rosanna x
    Rose's Rooftop

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  26. What a beautiful and inspiring post Marta! I'm glad to see you're back! I loved reading it and I am looking forward to discover your next posts :) Love your new blog template too!

    xx

    Claire from Dresscape
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  27. Renovar é preciso!
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  28. Very beautiful post.

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  31. I love you post! Thanks for sharing
    xoxo Gina

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  32. Wonderful post, such a smart way to take a break.

    Deedee

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  33. Beautiful article <3 Xx Susanne - http://bagatyou.com

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  34. Really glad that you have been able to turn it around and have embraced being back in the social media/blogging realm. Life has it's ups and downs and I glad that you are able to be able to express yourself freely on here.

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  36. Não ter respostas pode ser aterrador mas a incerteza é excitante! xx
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  37. It's good to have you back babe. I can't wait to see where you go with your blog as you rediscover your passions. I need to figure out how to best use my Linked in Profile too!

    xoxo
    Rina Samantha
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  38. nice text!
    xx

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  40. Loved reading this post. I found it so peaceful to read. Can’t wait to see what you come up with on your personal journey!

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  41. I love this idea of taking a break and living vicariously through others. I hope you got the r&r you needed and are ready for the next chapter in life.

    xx Yasmin
    http://banglesandbungalows.com

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  42. Bom regresso neste novo 'projeto'! ;)

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  43. Welcome back and new beginnings are always so exciting!
    Julia x
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  44. Hi have a nice day!
    xoxo Gina

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